Report 02
Goodbye 2025! My plans for the next year.
Tonight will mark an end of this year - a quite intensive one at that. A year filled with constant change of plans and getting not quite what you wished for. I'm still grateful for the things that happened though - not everyone I know can sum up 2025 as overall successful. For some of my friends this has been a total shit show as far as I can see and compared to their mishaps, my blunders are puny, and insignificant. The fact that they sting me the way they do, makes my reminiscing of them even dumber in hindsight - like getting a luxury car and complaining about seats being slightly to yellowy shade of white then what you anticipated but I guess the silliness is what you get when one gets to meticulous about things they can't control and loosens the grip on things they can because of this. Nevertheless, we survived and shall carry on, hoping this year to more favorable than the one going by.
I've never been a fan of new year's resolutions - if you really need or want a change in your life, then I don't think waiting for someone to shoot several volleys of explosives into the air is going to be a valid trigger for them.An action in such cases should be, in my opinion, decisive and instant. Waiting only makes space for excuses not to do anything - primarily because of fear. Fear of making bad decision, fear of sacrificing your own feeling of certainty... which is also a totally normal thing - we basically have a piece of brain, that's dedicated solely to enact that fear of the unknown. This year, however, I've thought I may have a try in making some. Maybe the act of sharing them here makes them last longer through the year, who knows?
The thing I would like to change this year the most is getting less "rest" and definitely more Rest. I don't think there has been a day this year in which I wouldn't try to rest by dissociating on YouTube or other social media only to discover i had spent there twice the time I wanted to and didn't even get to rest at all. Considering that this year might be even more packed, I want to actually teach myself how to take 1 or 2 hours of me-time in the afternoon and then get going with the stuff that actually needs to be done. I don't want this to be me trying to become a steam engine - productivity for the sake of productivity is the other extreme of that spectrum that I'd like to stay away from. My main objective is to eliminate the things in my life that are done under the false pretense of bringing me joy or entertainment but end up draining me instead so that i can fill my spare time with activities that I actually enjoy and consider interesting - one of which is making my future posts here.
Making more time in my schedule for the goals that really matter to me might also help me with other thing I'd like to do this year, which is more quirky sidequests! Since switching to a more stationary job, spent in a rather solitary cubicle, my daily routine has lost a lot of whimsy that it used to have. Lack of sensory overload, constant malfunctions, silly jokes with my coworkers, and all the things that make hospitality both draining as well as endearing, has put my in a state where I've found myself having a lot more time and energy to spend after i return home, why should it all go to waste? DIY project? Helping a friend move a sofa across town? I'm in! Considering that my previous "resolution" would be finding more time to rest, a question would arise whether it doesn't cancel each other out... Well, maybe! But i think the more time i save by not scrolling through reels, the more flexible my schedule becomes and I hope to be able to squeeze at least a tiny bit of charm and wonder once a week or two.
If you've reached this far, I hope you'll have an amazing year and that my rambling has seemed interesting enough to await next report which I hope should arrive here soon. Happy New Year!
